[Silence. There's a long, long, long silence. But he didn't know who she was. But she loved him. Helping her? How was that twisted? but lives were lost. He should care right?
Right?
Ward draws in a deep breath, then another, then aims a fireball at a nearby tree and watches it explode. He tried to help someone. Someone wanted him. Someone looked to him for guidance. It's all he ever wanted, just like with Tommy and...
The thing is, Skye's been here a year and he and Fitz have been here a year and Agent 33...]
Twisted by John Garrett and the things I helped him do.
[Silence. He remembers being a massive hulking beast, a monster so big he couldn't even move without pain.]
Remember this here. If I can own up to my mistakes then so can you. And that's what you just did. I don't know her. I may never know her. And I can't grieve for any lives lost or people that I've tortured. I've tortured people for both SHIELD and HYDRA. For good causes and bad.
But I told you, that I didn't want to be that, or do that unless I really had to anymore. I know what I look like and I know what I am - and more importantly what I've been through. I just-
I have to try and do better. The only way I know how.
[If this man gave Romanoff a chance he deserves one too. If he gave Barton a goddamn chance...but What about Kara?]
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Date: 2015-08-13 03:46 am (UTC)Right?
Ward draws in a deep breath, then another, then aims a fireball at a nearby tree and watches it explode. He tried to help someone. Someone wanted him. Someone looked to him for guidance. It's all he ever wanted, just like with Tommy and...
The thing is, Skye's been here a year and he and Fitz have been here a year and Agent 33...]
Twisted by John Garrett and the things I helped him do.
[Silence. He remembers being a massive hulking beast, a monster so big he couldn't even move without pain.]
Remember this here. If I can own up to my mistakes then so can you. And that's what you just did. I don't know her. I may never know her. And I can't grieve for any lives lost or people that I've tortured. I've tortured people for both SHIELD and HYDRA. For good causes and bad.
But I told you, that I didn't want to be that, or do that unless I really had to anymore. I know what I look like and I know what I am - and more importantly what I've been through. I just-
I have to try and do better. The only way I know how.
[If this man gave Romanoff a chance he deserves one too. If he gave Barton a goddamn chance...but What about Kara?]
Did I love her? did she love me?